oh man
im so drunk right now
ive been drunk for 12 hours, i started drinkin at 4am when i got off work yesterday, and its 4am rght now and im still drujnk


thanks mike for leaving a handle of tequila in my room
rofl

so yeah

im in love
and like
im pretty sure htis isnt one of those "im in love, well i think im in love, im pretty sure i am, but its only cuz i think i am" sort of things
i know this for sure.
this girl is everyything i could ask for.. and ive never even met her

the story goes like this.


about 5 years ago, i signed up for this site called "BuddyPic.com" where yo upost a photo of yourself and a little Bio and people get to rate u 1-10

i met this girl brittny on there and i thot she was a total babe so we started talking
and like we eventually started calling eachother best friends
and well for 5 years weve talked on and off, just every now and then one of use would randomly IM or message the other and start talking again, then soon enough stop talking for awhile

but for a few motnhs now weve been talking ALOT and like, even though ive never met her, we really are best friends.
honestly,ive always thought she was really hot, and wished we couldve been together, but like i really liked us being friends more and even though she was with this guy michael, i never really was jealouse or anything (well kind of) but i only was a good friend to her and supported her and helped her with her relationship
and well
she recently broke up with this guy
and weve been talking more and more, calling and texting eachother all the time
and ive really fallen for her
shes still my best friend
and i could tell her ANYTHING and i trust her so much
shes such a sweet heart and a nice girl
and like

im gonna try and save up my money this month and go down to tennessee and shes gonna come back with me to illinois and spend some time over here and im gonna show her aroiund and spend time with her and really try and be the nicest guy she has ever met/been with

idk
she just steals my heart away, we connect together in so many ways
everyday i grow closer and closer to her


she seeems like she could be the girl ive been looking for for some time now

and to be honest,
if we never become more than friends, im fine iwth that too
id rather keep our friendship for ever than lose her all together because we dont wrok together as a couple

idk
in a month i guess ill find out cause im gonna be with her and were gonna be so fucking happy together i just know it

i cant wait



wel


thats all i wanted to say

goodnight


i love you brittny guffey<333333

tried to quit smoking this week
went a whole week without buying a pack
and then i bought one
to be honest, cigarettes taste gross
haha
yet i still light one up
ohhhh welll

so the other night, i had this really good dream
actually i had a good dream last nite too

the first one, i dont remember much
but there was this girl i had never seen before
and i had just met her in my dream too
and like we started kssing and stuff
and throughout the whole dream, i was just so happy with her
and then i woke up
fuck

BUT
wierd shit...
last night at work.. it was the end of the night and i was walking to the bathroom
AND I SAW HER
like i could swear it was the same girl from my dream
is that possible to have a dream of someone that u dont even know exists, but does!?
i think she works the next shift after mine cuz it looked like she just got there
but i must meet this girl
pronto.


and then my dream last night
haha
i had a bag of weed, and me and mike were smoking and i went to go hide the bag
and i found like a shitload of bags of weed i had forgotten about
haha
it was sooooooo cool
then i was walking around by myself and then somee guy that looked like a mix between The Thing (that orange rocky guy from Fantastic Four), Kurt Russell, and Mickey Rourke (Marv from Sin City) started beating the shit out of me but i got away


DONT KNOW
weirdddd shit


oh shannon started talking to me again
*rolls eyes*
i cant believe i actually didnt hook up with any girl, let alone hang out with any girls for liek 8 months or so just so i could be loyal to that scumbag

oh well
its my fault for being a dumbass fuckin retard

life moves on..